Tuesday, May 26, 2020

Life Lately: It's been a while, but I'm still alive!

Well I’m not sure where to even start. It’s been a while. And A LOT has happened since I took the time to write here last.

One of the biggest changes in my life post baby, and this is so obvious but still gets me every day, is that I’m learning to accept that there will never be enough time in the day to do all the things I want to do (hence the lack of blogging). I’ve always had this problem, but pre-baby I could multi-task, and hyper speed bake, laundry, blog, read, train, core, work,… And now it’s work (which I’m learning is painful when you have to be tied to a screen for 5 hours a day), and when work is over and toots is awake I can’t expect anything to get done. We are not the type of parents who wholeheartedly devote every waking minute of our day on the floor engaging with our baby, but it’s still not reasonable to think I will bake scones, blog, do the laundry and also entertain her and make dinner all between 3 and bedtime. It’s an adjustment, an adjustment of expectations mostly that has taken some time to get used to. But now that we are 9 months into this experiment called child raising I’m understanding more and more that I can pick 2 things that are important to me, right now work and training, and the rest of the day I’m flexible, and don’t put pressure on myself to overachieve. If the blog doesn’t get written, oh well.

That being said there have been SO many good thoughts running through my head for the past month, thoughts I wanted to turn into blog posts because either I wanted to remember some feeling or memory from this time, or I felt it may help some other new mom. And I think about writing those blog posts for a few days, and then they eventually get crowded out of my mind by thoughts of laundry and when did the baby poop last. Have you noticed laundry is pretty high on the list of stressors? Haha, it’s not even that we have much more dirty clothes, but managing re-usable diapers and cycling clothes is a thing, and I want them to all be clean all the time, which just isn’t possible.
Anyhow, I took the time today to sit down and write finally, because I do want to remember some things. But as I sit here with a sleeping baby in the next room and who knows how much time to write I cannot for the life of me remember what they were. Which means this blog will be a shallow recounting of our life lately.

About 8 weeks ago, maybe more, maybe less, who knows how to tell time anymore anyway, my good friend Nikki moved in with us in Silverado. We wanted to add her to our Quarenteam for a lot of reasons, and it turned out to be the best 8 weeks ever (and also the last 8 weeks in our house on Hazel Bell). During that time Nikki and I got to ride all the bikes, do some virtual racing, and bake/cook incredible food. I think I’m a pretty ‘glass-half-full’ person, but I would have struggled with this whole stuck at home thing alone. Having to stay home and not getting to race bikes was WAY more fun with a friend, especially someone else who understands the sadness when you see your favorite race cancelled. More about Nikki in a future post ( I hope haha).

In the last few weeks Leadville was cancelled, so that is a sad thing I have been digesting. Also more on this when I know how I feel about it. Just know that in the mean time I am still training as if Leadville is going to happen, not really sure why sometimes but I’m doing it. I guess that deserves it’s own blog post as well.

And last major update for now, WE SOLD OUR HOUSE! This actually happened a few months ago, but through the whole closing procedures etc I didn’t really want to blab about it. Anyway, here we are on the other side of having owned a house, not able to afford anything in Sonoma County… yep, you got it, a whole ‘nother blog post to write. I got my work cut out for me.

In the meantime I’m just wrapping up the school year with a week and a half of digital lessons left and then the dreaded week of kids turning in all the missing work they’ve ever received.