Wednesday, January 3, 2018

2018 Yo

Ok, ok, ok, I know I am incredibly behind the times, but here are a few thoughts on the new year, racing, and what we will be up to for 2018.

First of all, while riding mountain bikes with Brendan on Jan 1 in Santa Cruz, while I was floating over rough patches in a very torn up Soquel Demo forest (end of season wear and tear kinda rough) my new year's resolution came to me; Positivity.
Nature makes me remember what is important. 
You may think, wait, hold on a minute, Larissa is SO happy all the time, always smiling, so positive, how is that anything new? Well, to be perfectly honest, 2017 started out very hard for me, and the negative events that happened at the end of 2016 spilled into the beginning of last year, leaving me bitter, unsure of who I was and what path I should take forward to rebuild the bike racing career that seemed to be torn apart. And I wasn't the nicest, most positive person. When cars would buzz me on my bike ride home I would get so so angry, when I was upset I would say negative, nasty things about people I barely know, other people whose personal struggles I didn't understand, and I think I just lost touch of the happy, positive, person I used to be.
Got to ride a lap with this guy, so that made me pretty happy :)

During the descent down Flow trail, while I was starting to fixate on the braking bumps and ruts, and all the things that were 'wrong' with the trail, I kinda snapped out of it and had that moment of clarity where I realized that I was surrounded by trees and real dirt and beautiful weather. I had good health and a working body on my side, an awesome bike and time off work that allowed me to even do this ride. And when I shifted my mindset I started having so much more fun :)

Wheelie excited about 2018, big goals and exciting challenges. 
I know mindset is a spectrum, and that you can't always be happy and smiling, but I want to focus on choosing to be happy no matter what this year. I want to actively think about the good things, rather than immediately focusing on the complaints I have. I want to be uplifting, and helpful, and the person who consistently helps others feel better in 2018. So yeah, that's my new year's resolution, nothing new, but what I feel is the most important aspect of myself.

In other news, I've also realized that I am addicted to scary things. Tomorrow I am about to embark on the scariest thing I can think of, so scary I don't want to advertise what it is (to Brendan's despair) because there is a real significant chance I will fail. It's going to be hard, and painful, like all good things, but also has the potential to be beautiful and to give me that sense of accomplishment I am always chasing.

And what better way to start the new year than by doing the very thing that scares the living daylights out of you?!

More on my 2018 team and goals and all that really good stuff coming soon. For now, wish me luck on this challenge, and if you want to follow along, Brendan will be on my social media for the next 2 days filling you all in on where I am and what I am doing :)

1 comment:

  1. Be safe and have fun - don't forget to document a few pictures along the way for us dreamers 😊